"Welcome to the Club"

Another true tale from  la vie de la bohème by Dan Leo

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"What better way to greet a bracingly cold, slightly drizzly late-March morning than to step out onto one's fire escape, and, while gazing out over the great awakening city, to light up a King Size Husky Boy Benzo-Tip™?" – Horace P. Sternwall, author of the "stirring"* new novel Savage Streets of Doom

*Flossie Flanagan, The New York Federal-Democrat

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A hand-painted signifier on the lintel, faintly illuminated by a stained fixture in the wall above it, read "The D.B. Club"  "This isn't the right place," said Milford. "Yes, but it's a place," said Addison. "Any place is a place," said Milford. "Your point is well taken," said Addison, taking out his Chesterfields, "but by 'place' I mean it's not the maze of dimly lit or completely dark corridors in which we have just been wandering these past thirty minutes." "Let's go." "Wait. Let's go in here, and maybe they can tell us how to get back to the Negro bar and to our lady friends." "I don't know –" "What do we have to lose?" "Our sanity?" "My dear chap," said Addison, "how can we lose something we do not possess?" "Look how dirty this door is," said Milford. It was true. The door was coated with cracked and peeling paint which might once have been a bright Kelly green, but was now reminiscent of nothing less than dried vomit. "A lot of these venerable old establishments have unprepossessing exteriors." "What's that little sign say?" Milford referred to a small placard on the door, on which cursive words had been painted on a grey background. The words were barely legible in the dim light, but the two companions stepped closer to decipher them, which were If you be the person all deride as an example of idiocy, and not without good reason, turn the knob and come inside to where douchebaggery is always in season. "Well," said Addison, having lighted a cigarette and tossed the match to the floor, "if that isn't an invitation I don't know what is." There was knob on the door, and he turned it. "Wait," said Milford. "For what?"  "Maybe we really should just keep walking, and look for that other place –" "My dear Milford, what's the worst that can happen if we just go inside and inquire for directions?" Milford in the space of three seconds thought of several possibilities, each worse than the one previous, but he left these misgivings unvoiced, and, sighing, for the twelve-thousandth and thirty-third time since he had last been unconscious, he said simply, "All right. Open the door." Inside of course was a bar, another bar, another crowded smoky bar that seemed to extend to infinity, and blaring jukebox music and the humming and babble of voices enveloped our friends like a wave eternally crashing. There was a man sitting at a podium to the right of the entrance. "Hi there, fellas," said the man. His face was the color of an old potato sack, and he wore a faded brown suit and a dull garnet bowtie. His hair was thin and strangely black. He had horn-rimmed glasses that magnified his eyes, which looked like the eyes of a dead octopus. "First time here, huh?" "Yes," said Addison. "So you're interested in membership." "Well, actually," said Addison, "we were –" "You two young fellas look like just the sort of guys we're looking for. And just between you and me and the wall we could use some fresh blood in this joint, ha ha." "Well, really," said Addison, "we just stopped in to ask –" "Allow me if I may, as part of our screening process, to ask you two good gentlemen a few questions." "Um, excuse me –" said Milford. "You," said the potato-sack man, to Milford, "judging by your peacoat, your newsboy's cap, the round Trotskyite spectacles, the Hemingwayesque fisherman's sweater –" he leaned over the edge of the podium to take in the lower part of Milford's corporeal host, "the dungarees and the scuffed workman's brogans, I'm going to say you're a poet. Am I right?" Milford hung his head, and said nothing. "Ha ha, I'm right," said the man. "And you, sir," he said, addressing Addison, "the baggy colorless old suit and crumpled fedora that a maiden aunt probably bought for you when first you went off to an inglorious and disgracefully truncated college career, the general air of ill-fed dissipation, you, my good man, are obviously a novelist." "Bingo," said Addison. "Now, as I was saying–" "So far so good," said the man. "Now, the million dollar question. Have either of you published?" He looked from Addison to Milford, and then back to Addison. "Well, uh –" said Addison, "the thing is, I'm still rather in the beginning stages of working on my novel, which I envision as a true American epic in the tradition of  –" "I thought so," said the man. "How about you, buddy?" he said, cocking his head at Milford. "Any poems in small fly-by-night literary quarterlies?"  "Well, I haven't really submitted much yet thus far," said Milford. "I'll take that as a no, then," said the man. "Okay, you're both accepted, provisionally, as members of 'the club'." "Great," said Addison. "So, as I was saying–" "That'll be a buck apiece. Oh, and I'll also need your names or at least your noms de plume for our official roster." "Look," said Addison, "we appreciate it, I think I speak for my friend here, but we actually just just came in here to ask for directions." "Yeah, sure, that's what they all say," said the man. "Listen pal, don't try to bullshit a bullshitter. You know you're a douchebag and I know you're douchebag, and we both sure as hell know your little pal here is a douchebag, and that's why you're both here. Welcome to the Douchebag Club, and like I said, that'll be a buck apiece." "Wait a minute," said Milford. "We don't want to join your club." "You telling me you and your boyfriend here ain't douchebags?" "I'm not saying anything of the sort, I'm only saying we don't want to join your club." "Yes," added Addison, "and if you would have only had allowed me to finish a sentence –" "Oh, wow," said the man. "What do you mean, 'Wow,'" said Addison. "I mean, 'Wow, you two really are a couple of douchebags, aren't you?' I mean, even by my standards, which, believe me, are quite liberal, that's how long I been working here, you two really are a pair of prime douchebags." An enormous fat man came over, holding an enormous cigar. "We got a problem here, Cerberus?" "Just a couple of real prime douchebags," said the man at the podium. The big fat man took a look at our two friends. "They sure look like prime douchebags." He had an English accent, but it might have been an affected one. "So what's the trouble, fellows?" "We only came in here to ask for directions," said Milford. "Bullshit," said the man at the podium. "Be cool, Cerberus," said the big fat man, and he took the measure again of the two friends. "They call me Big Daddy," said the big man. "And I know a couple of fellow prime douchebags when I see 'em. What are your names, chums?" "Well, they call me Addison," said Addison, "but my real name is –" "Pleased to meet you, Addison," said the big man. "Put 'er there." He extended his enormous fat hand, like the paw of a rhinoceros. Addison was unable by constitution to refuse a handshake, and so he allowed his thin hand to be enveloped in the fat man's fat hand, which squeezed his own just up to the point of pain, but then allowed it to escape. "And you," said the big man called Big Daddy to Milford. "What's your moniker, young fella?" "Milford?" said Milford. "You don't sound too sure." "It's Milford." "And may I take your lily-white hand in a firm grasp of potential friendship, Milford, if that is indeed your name?" "Please don't crush it." "I'll try not to." Milford extended his small hand and in turn allowed it to be swallowed up in the man called Big Daddy's paw, and at the very verge of screaming in agony, his small hand was allowed to be pulled away. "Follow me, gentlemen," said the big man called Big Daddy. "But," said Addison. "Yes, but," said Milford. "We just want directions," said Addison. "Yes," said Milford. "I will give you directions," said the big man, "if that's what you want. I will give you very detailed directions. I'll give you directions to any place you want to go. I will even draw you a map. If that's what you want. Now come with me." "They didn't pay their membership fees yet," said the man at the podium. "Don't worry about that now," said the man called Big Daddy.  "I'm sure they're good for it." "Look, I think we're just going to leave," said Addison. "Thanks anyway." "Yeah, thanks," said Milford, and he turned around, went to the door and turned the doorknob. The door wouldn't open.

"A Tale of Two Tales"

Another sad but true tale of  la vie de la bohème by Dan Leo

Illustrations and additional dialogue by rhoda penmarq, exclusively for quinnmartinmarq™ productions

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"I wonder," said Addison, after they had walked without speaking through the darkness for a minute, "if I might tell you a little story." "Yeah, sure, why not?" said Milford. "It's a chapter from my past that I have never shared with anyone before." "Okay." "It's a sad story, and I suspect it will be at least somewhat unpleasant for me to relate, but, perhaps in the telling there will be some catharsis." "Um," said Milford, if one can be said to "say" the vocalism "um". "At the very least," continued Addison, "the tale might help to pass the time until we find our way back." If we find our way back, thought Milford. "I think I mentioned to you that I spent a couple of years during the war working in a parachute factory." "Yes," said Milford, already thinking of something else, although of what exactly he would not have been able to say. "It was in the town of Fayetteville, North Carolina. Have you ever been there?" Milford said nothing, because he was thinking of something that he was in the process of forgetting about even while he thought it. "I say have you ever been there, old chap," said Addison, who had assumed his full-blown George Sanders voice. "Where's that?" said Milford. "To Fayetteville, North Carolina." "No," said Milford. "Why?" "No reason, really, except that that town is the location of the sad tale I am about to tell." "Oh, okay," said Milford. "If I may continue then." "Sure," said Milford. And Addison went on, in his George Sanders voice, which became more his Ronald Colman voice, something about this factory he had worked in, and a bar the factory workers and the soldiers in the nearby army camp drank at, it all sounded very tedious, and Addison's narration didn't make it any less tedious to hear about, even if it was in his Ronald Colman voice, and so Milford thought about many other things, remembered many things, rehashed many things, and eventually he and Addison came to another intersection of corridors in the darkness, which they had become more used to now, and once again there was the question of which way to go, straight ahead, or to the right or left. There seemed to be a faint glimmer of illumination to the left, and so Milford spoke up. "Should we turn left?" he said.  "What?" said Addison, who had been in the middle of a long sentence with numerous parenthetical asides and digressions. "I think I see light to the left down there, so maybe we should go that way." "Oh, yes, of course. So, as I was saying –" and Addison went on as they turned down the corridor to the left. Milford's Husky Boy had burnt down to a stub, and so he tossed it to the floor, and stopped to grind it out with the sole of his stout workman's brogan. Addison had continued on, still telling his story, and Milford hitch-stepped quickly to catch up. Now it was Addison's turn to toss his Chesterfield butt away, but so absorbed was he in the telling of his tale that he didn't bother to grind it out with his shoe. Milford thought briefly of retreating and stepping on the butt, but he let it go, then felt guilty after a few more paces and went back and ground out the butt. Addison didn't even notice, but kept on walking and talking as Milford hurried to catch up. They came to another turning, and this time the corridor to the right was dimly lit by what looked like a bare lightbulb fifty-some feet ahead, and so without discussing the matter they went that way. "And so," said Addison finally, after they had turned down yet another dim corridor, "there you have it. I've never told that story to anyone else, but, well, I like to think of you as my friend, Milford." "Pardon?" said Milford, aroused by the mention of his name. "Yes," said Addison. "I hope you don't think it presumptuous of me." "Um, no," said Milford, because it was easier to say than to say he had no idea what Addison was on about. "I'm so glad. And I hope you don't feel ill of me now." "No," said Milford. "I am afraid that others would not be so open-minded after hearing such a sordid tale." "Oh, I like to think I'm open-minded," said Milford, wondering if he possibly had missed something slightly interesting by ignoring nearly every word Addison had uttered for the past fifteen minutes. "And I should like to say also," said Addison, still speaking in his full-on Ronald Colman voice, "that if there is ever anything you wish to get off your chest, well, feel free, my friend." "Oh, why bother," said Milford, "I've shared so much of my pathetic personal history at Alcoholics Anonymous that even I'm sick of hearing my boring stories." Addison was glad to hear this, as he had only made the offer out of politeness, and rather doubted that Milford had any interesting stories to tell anyway. "But there is one story, though," said Milford. "And it's so humiliating that I not only never shared it at AA, but I never even told it to that horrible psychiatrist my mother sent me to. Would you like to hear it?" "I should love to." "Okay. Well, it was when I was at Andover, in my first year there, and, boy, how I hated that place –" And as Milford went on, Addison drifted off, still thinking of the story he had just told, which in fact he had told quite a few times over the years, embellishing often, and adding or subtracting details and dialogue and philosophical asides as his creative genius might urge him.  Some ten minutes later, Milford was saying, "So you see, I think it might have been that incident which set the course for the whole rest of my miserable life, a turning point which –" "Excuse me," said Addison, "I don't mean to interrupt, but I see a door up ahead." "A door?" And now Milford saw it, down at the end of this current dim corridor, a door, with a light above it. "A door," said Addison. "And where there is a door, there must be something behind it." "Oh, thank God," said Milford. "Not that I believe in God." "Of course not," said Addison. "Oh, but do continue with your story." "I've finished it," said Milford. "I hope I didn't bore you." "Oh, not at all," said Addison. "As I said, I've never told it to anyone." "Well, I assure you, I will never repeat it to anyone," said Addison, which was true, because he hadn't been listening. Now further bonded by the confessions neither had heard, the two friends quickened their steps toward the unknown door.

"Two C-Words"

Another sad but true tale of  la vie de la bohème by Dan Leo

Illustrations and additional dialogue by rhoda penmarq exclusively for quinnmartinmarq™ productions

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"What better way to increase the pleasure of a ramble through the cool air of early March, be it through city streets, a deserted beach, or a thick shadowed forest, than by lighting up a fine Husky Boy cigarette, now available with our patented refreshing Benzo-Tip™?" – Horace P. Sternwall, author of the "trenchant"* new collection of stories Loons in Saloons.

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On they walked, without speaking, until neither could bear not speaking one second longer, despite having nothing interesting to say, a consideration that had never stopped either of them before. "Y'know –" said Addison. "By the way –" said Milford, simultaneously. "What?" said Addison. "No, you go first," said Milford. "No, by all means –" said Addison. "It was nothing," said Milford. "But it must have been something," said Addison. "Yes, I suppose so," said Milford. "Then what was it?" said Addison. "Um," said Milford. "Yes, go on." "Uh." "Please, expand. I am on tenterhooks." "Okay," said Milford. "What are tenterhooks, anyway?" said Addison. "I have no idea," said Milford. "Y'know," said Addison, assuming his George Sanders "intellectual" voice, "someday, they'll invent little devices that you can carry in your pocket, and all you'll have to do is ask it a question on any subject, and it will give you an answer." "Oh?" said Milford. "Yes," said Addison, "so you can just ask it, what's a tenterhook, and it will tell you." "Okay," said Milford, after a moment's pause, "but –" "But what?" "Will it tell you the meaning of life?" "Possibly," said Addison. "Will it give you a reason to get out of bed in the morning?" "To urinate?" "Yes, there's that," said Milford. "So what were you going to say?" said Addison. "I haven't the faintest idea. What were you going to say?" "Me?" "Yes. You started to say something." "I have no idea either," said Addison. "Have you noticed something odd?" said Milford. "I notice very little," said Addison, "but what I do notice is unfailingly odd." "We have been walking for five minutes at least and we haven't gotten anywhere." "Yes," said Addison. "We've turned down two or three corridors, at random." "Seemingly at random, yes," said Addison. "Seemingly?" said Milford. "Well, yes, at random, touché," said Addison. "We're lost," said Milford. "Do you mean in the existential sense?" "That, yes, but also in the literal sense." "All right, granted," said Addison. "But we must get somewhere if we keep going." "What if we reach a dead end?" "Then I suppose we'll just have to turn around and go back the way we came." They walked on, and after three or possibly four minutes they came to another intersection of dim hallways. "Now which way?" said Milford. "Right, I think," said Addison. "May I ask why you think right is the right way?" "Okay, how about left then?" said Addison. "We're lost," said Milford, again. "Yes, this is true," said Addison. He took out his Chesterfields, and offered the pack to Milford. "I suppose you don't want a Chesterfield?" "No, thanks," said Milford. He patted his peacoat pockets, and brought out his pack of Husky Boys. "What happened to your Woodbines?" said Addison.  "Oh," said Milford. "Well, earlier tonight I met this old poet who told me I was a – please pardon the word, but it was his locution, not mine – he said I was a – and, again, I quote – a 'cunt' for smoking English cigarettes, and he crumpled up my pack of Woodbines and threw them to the floor." "Oh, dear," said Addison, who could well sympathize, having been called a cunt himself on more occasions than he could possibly count. "So," continued Milford, "when I went to buy a new pack I saw these Husky Boys in the machine and bought them." "So, no more Woodbines for you then?" "No. I may well be a cunt, but I don't want to be thought a cunt." "An admirable ambition I think." Addison lighted up both their cigarettes with a match from his book of Bob's Bowery Bar matches. "Thank you," said Milford. "You're welcome," said Addison. "Y'know, perhaps in a sense, but in a very real sense," he was speaking in his full-blown Ronald Colman/George Sanders voice now, "perhaps not being thought a cunt is the first step in not actually being a cunt." Milford had no response to this proposition, and he made none. "You disagree?" said Addison. "I neither agree nor disagree," said Milford. "But since I apparently am a cunt, my opinion is probably worthless." Now it was Addison's turn not to respond. After a long and echoing minute, he did speak. "So, on that note, which way?" "Straight ahead," said Milford, stifling a sigh with a drag of Husky Boy smoke. "Straight ahead it is," said Addison, and they continued onward, the corridor growing dimmer and dimmer until they were walking in almost complete darkness, the only illumination the tips of their two cigarettes. From the corner of his eye Addison saw the red glow of Milford's Husky Boy leave its wobbling position where presumably it had been in front of Milford's face and swerve in an arc downward. "If this were happening in a novel," said Milford's voice in the darkness, "the critics would say it was a metaphor for the absurdity of life." Addison said nothing, as he saw the red glow rise up again to the height of Milford's mouth, and for thirty seconds the only sounds were that of the two friends' footsteps in the darkness. "Y'know, Milford," said Addison, after these thirty seconds had elapsed, "critics really are the consummate cunts of the world." Milford had no reply to this remark, at least none that he voiced, and the two companions walked on in the darkness that was relieved only by the glowing red tips of their cigarettes.

"The Two Friends"

Another true tale of  la vie de la bohème by Dan Leo

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"What better way to appreciate the first fresh breath of spring than to step outside and light up a fine Husky Boy cigarette?" – Horace P. Sternwall, your host of the "Husky Boy Television Theatre"; this week's play: Mr. Sternwall's Tramp Steamer Bound for Singapore, starring Hyacinth Wilde, Jackie Cooper, Edward Everett Horton, and Dame Edith Evans

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Once again the feeling of floating, and Milford rose up into the night through the heavy falling snow, and he looked down on the city vaguely sprinkled with stars, and he fell through outer space and into the mouth of an enormous snake and came to the edge of the earth, and he looked over the edge into bottomless darkness and thought why not, and he stepped over and tumbled down and down. "Hey, buddy." It was Addison, reappeared out of the fog of smoke, gripping his arm. "Oh, hello," said Milford. "You awake?" "Now I am." "Good, let's get you out of here." "All right." Addison pulled him along, they came to a door, Addison pulled it open, and then shoved Milford gently through. They stood in the dim hallway as the door closed behind them, and from behind the door came the sounds of Jelly Roll's piano and his singing and the babble of drunken voices. "Okay," said Addison, "first thing, get your sweater and peacoat on, it's like the North Pole out there." The process took no more than three minutes, maybe four, with Addison helping by buttoning up Milford's peacoat for him, because Milford's fingers had trebled in size. "Okay, great," said Addison. "Now let's get you home." "Wait," said Milford. "What for?" "Why are you helping me?" Addison paused before answering. "Y'know, Milford, I may be a drunk, and a pathetic remittance man, and a talentless poseur, but I like to think I am not a total reprobate, and that I am in my own small way, yes, dare I say it, a gentleman. I saw a friend in need, so I thought why not help him out?" Now it was Milford who paused. "I can't say that is something I've ever done," he said. "Help a friend in need. But then –" He said nothing. "But what?" said Addison. "I've never had a friend," said Milford. Addison brought out his pack of Chesterfields. One thing he hadn't mentioned was that his little beau geste in offering to walk Milford home would undoubtedly raise him in the estimation of the three ladies at his table, at least one of whom might just possibly, if not tonight, then perhaps in some vague futurity, relieve him of his virginity before he died. Even someone as loquacious as Addison knew it was possible to say too much sometimes, and why cast oneself in a bad light when so many others were willing to? "Well, my good fellow," he said, "I hope you will consider me your friend," and he gave the Chesterfield pack a shake. "Coffin nail?" "Thanks," said Milford, "but I prefer Woodbines." l Addison expertly inserted a Chesterfield into his lips directly from the pack. "What is it with you and Woodbines?" he asked. "I've always been interested in other people's little pretensions." "I saw Dylan Thomas give a reading one time at the Jewish Y, and he was smoking Woodbines." "Well, that explains it," said Addison, taking out his book of Bob's Bowery Bar matches, "and the burly sweater and peacoat, I suppose." "The peacoat is more an attempt to express solidarity with the working class." "But have you ever worked yourself?" "Never." "Well, count yourself lucky, my lad." Addison lighted his cigarette, and tossed the match to the floor. He exhaled a great cloud of smoke, and semi-consciously assumed his "poetic" voice, which he had honed by watching Ronald Colman and George Sanders movies. "When the war ended and I was finally laid off from my job at the parachute factory, it was the happiest day of my life, and I swore never again, not if I could help it. Trust me, young Milford, there is nothing more horrible than a job." "I have sometimes thought of shipping out on a tramp steamer." "Why?" "To gain experience of life?" "Take it from me, boyo, a bruised veteran of well more than two years on the assembly lines, some experiences are better left unexperienced. No, there is nothing better than idleness. But come on, let's get out of this. You need to hit the hay, and I need to get back to that table and those three lovely ladies." "All right." "Do you remember how to get out of here?" "No," said Milford. "Me neither," said Addison, "so let's just start walking until we find an exit."  The dim hallway went to the right and to the left, and another hallway led directly ahead. "Might as well go this way," said Addison, pointing, and they started walking straight ahead. They walked on into the dimness, the hallway seeming to curve very gradually, and they saw neither a doorway or an ending. They continued walking and after several minutes came to another interior crossroads, the hallway they were in leading straight ahead, and another hallway crossing it and going to the right and to the left. "I think we turn left here," said Addison. "What do you think?" "I have no idea," said Milford. "Okay, let's go left." They turned left and wandered along another gently curving hallway barely illuminated by widely spaced low-wattage lightbulbs in the ceiling until after some five minutes they came to a bifurcation, one passage curving to the right, the other to the left. "Which way?" said Addison. "Wait a minute," said Milford. "Okay," said Addison. They stopped. Addison came to the end of his Chesterfield, dropped it to the floor, and ground it out with the sole of his shoe. He looked at Milford, who was staring at the floor. "What is it, old boy?" asked Addison. "I feel as if I am becoming dissociated from my corporeal host," said Milford. "I know that feeling," said Addison. "It will pass." "What if it doesn't pass." "That moment will come to all of us, my friend. One name for it is death." Milford sighed. "That," he said, "was the twelve-thousandth and thirty-second sigh I have heaved since awakening from my troubled night's sleep this morning." "And it probably won't be your last," said Addison, "not until you fall asleep again. And then when you awaken you can start the whole process over once more." "Maybe we should go back," said Milford. "You mean you don't want to go home? To your presumably cozy bed?" "Back at the bar I was sitting with an intelligent and attractive woman. And I left her there to go home and go to bed? What is wrong with me?" "I haven't the faintest idea," said Addison. "Can we go back?" "Why not?" "There is no reason why not." "I agree," said Addison. "Let's go back," said Milford. "Okay," said Addison. "Do you remember how to get back?" "No," said Milford. "I suggest we turn around and attempt to retrace our steps." "Okay." "Shall we hie us hence then?" "Yes." And so they turned around and headed back the way they had presumably come. There was nothing else they could do. Or, rather, there were countless other things they could do, but this was the course they chose, and on the two friends forged through the gently curving and dim hallway.